There is no question the id is in charge, and it is letting the ego know what is going on, and the superego is not even trying. I have no idea how to stop the diet hemorrhage. I am so ashamed of my progress, but I have to be honest and record what really went down.
Tuesday Jan 17 1000, Wednesday Jan 18 1100, Thursday Jan 19 1610, Friday Jan 20 1265, Saturday Jan 21 1290, Sunday Jan 22 1070, Monday Jan 23 1760. Week average 1300. I do not have the courage to weigh myself. As you can see, have been losing ground since the beginning of the new year, not that I was ever that strong.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Way to Recovery
I made it through the Holidays pretty much unscathed, but the beginning of the new year was extremely hard. I have been back on the wagon since Friday, so I am ever hopeful I am on the way to recovery. Last March some Kios put a scale downstairs so we could track our progress.
Its a machine that basically weighs, reports a BMI, and takes your picture every time you set on the scale. I wanted to start using it last November, but I couldn't remember my password, the new one did not work and it would not let me sign in as new member, because I was already registered and I did not have the time or inclination to figure it out. But today I powered through my frustration and got log on (hopefully it will work next month when I try to weigh in again).
So, I plan on putting a Kios photograph on my blog the middle of each month.
Jan 3 1150 kcal, Jan 4 1080 kcal, Jan 5 1170 kcal, Jan 6 1480 kcal, Jan 7 300 kcal, Jan 8 1637. Jan 9 1840 Kcal. Average for week 1237. 78.18 Kg.
Jan 10 2540 kcal, Jan 11 1300 kcal, Jan 12 1340, Jan 13 550 kcal, Jan 14 815 Kcal, Jan 15 850 kcal, Jan 16 680 kcal. Average for week 1154. 77.27 Kg.
My new plan is to avoid sugar. I think I might have a slight sugar addiction. I seem to due okay as long as I limit my sugar intake. It seems as soon as sugar touches my lips I can not help but to crave more and more.
Its a machine that basically weighs, reports a BMI, and takes your picture every time you set on the scale. I wanted to start using it last November, but I couldn't remember my password, the new one did not work and it would not let me sign in as new member, because I was already registered and I did not have the time or inclination to figure it out. But today I powered through my frustration and got log on (hopefully it will work next month when I try to weigh in again).
So, I plan on putting a Kios photograph on my blog the middle of each month.
Jan 3 1150 kcal, Jan 4 1080 kcal, Jan 5 1170 kcal, Jan 6 1480 kcal, Jan 7 300 kcal, Jan 8 1637. Jan 9 1840 Kcal. Average for week 1237. 78.18 Kg.
Jan 10 2540 kcal, Jan 11 1300 kcal, Jan 12 1340, Jan 13 550 kcal, Jan 14 815 Kcal, Jan 15 850 kcal, Jan 16 680 kcal. Average for week 1154. 77.27 Kg.
My new plan is to avoid sugar. I think I might have a slight sugar addiction. I seem to due okay as long as I limit my sugar intake. It seems as soon as sugar touches my lips I can not help but to crave more and more.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
New Year, New Begining
We took down the tree yesterday, which means for us, the holidays are officially over. I did not spend much for Christmas, but I made up for lost time on the 31st and 1st. Tuesday Morning was offering half off of last price on all yellow (clearance) tag items. The temptation was just too much. I hit six stores on Saturday, and then on Sunday I hit Dillard's. Dillard had the same deal, half off of last price on all pink (clearance) tags. I only went to one store, but I went to my car four times because I could not carry anymore.
The reason I bring this up is because I have a feeling my out of control spending is somehow related to the fact that I have such a hard time controlling my diet. For some reason I have very little resistance to enticing little morsels. My solution has always been to stay away from temptation, but maybe I need to rethink that strategy, maybe I need to work on building resistance. 79kgs.
Tuesday Dec 27 1010 Kcals
Wednesday Dec 28 1455 Kcals
Thursday Dec 29 915 Kcals
Friday Dec 30 815 Kcals
Saturday Dec 31 720 Kcals
Sunday Jan 1 1050
Monday Jan 2 1390 Kcal
Average 1051 Kcals
The reason I bring this up is because I have a feeling my out of control spending is somehow related to the fact that I have such a hard time controlling my diet. For some reason I have very little resistance to enticing little morsels. My solution has always been to stay away from temptation, but maybe I need to rethink that strategy, maybe I need to work on building resistance. 79kgs.
Tuesday Dec 27 1010 Kcals
Wednesday Dec 28 1455 Kcals
Thursday Dec 29 915 Kcals
Friday Dec 30 815 Kcals
Saturday Dec 31 720 Kcals
Sunday Jan 1 1050
Monday Jan 2 1390 Kcal
Average 1051 Kcals
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